Sunday, July 24, 2011


Looking back, when I started this blog, I never dreamed that somewhere down the road I'd be writing about the subject of infertility.  Trying for a baby was somewhere in the back of my mind; not yet a reality.  And yet, througout this past year and a half, I've felt comforted by speaking from my heart onto this blog and every once in awhile, seeing your kind words of encouragment.

After a year of struggling to get pregnant, and then almost six months of seeing a fertility specialist, still with no concrete answers of "Why?", countless appointments, tests, blood work, injections, and finally, artificial insemination, I was pregnant.  Finally.

And I am so heartbroken to say, that one month after I heard those sweet words of "Congratulations!!" from my doctor and nurse, that I have miscarried.

Seeing it on the screen makes it a bit more real.  As I type this, tears are streaming down my cheeks and there is a fogginess in my head. 

Did this really happen?

It seems like a nightmare; one that I know is not going to go away easily or soon.

Please hold us a little closer in your hearts right now.


  1. I don't even know you...and yet tears are streaming down my cheeks too. For you. I am so so sorry. Is there a positive side to this at all? Have the doctors said that at least this means you CAN get pregnant? Never mind. I know that doesn't take a way the pain of THIS loss. I'm so so sorry.

  2. Im praying for your heart to mend and that the desires of your heart come to fruition.Take some time for yourself.

  3. Thank you so much Carol-anne and Comeca. Yes, it is a positive that I CAN get pregnant, so that's the silver lining of this whole ordeal. We're going to take a few months off then try again.

  4. I'm so sorry for your loss - I had a miscarriage in Jan, there is nothing anyone can say to make it better, but it does get easier with time.

    Regarding the infertility, don't give up miracles do happen - I have a 15mth old son - my husband and I had been trying for 9yrs

  5. Hey, just wanted to check in and see how you are? Thinking about you every day (yes, I know it's weird because we're strangers) and hoping you are coping.

    God Bless.

  6. Hadn't checked in for awhile. I'm so sorry you are going through this. It sucks... and it's not fair. It's been just over a year since my miscarriage. Even though we were in a different position... It was a surprise pregnancy, it still hurts the same. I've been crafting a post about it for the past couple of months, and am just now ALMOST ready to get it out there. Even though I only know you through blogland, you are loved!